Chosen

    Have you ever gotten a job you weren’t really qualified for? Like... maybe the employer mixed up your resume with someone else and you got the job? I feel like God does that to us sometimes. He really shows off His power by using the unlikely to do great and unexpected things. 

Motherhood wasn’t something on my to-do list. I avoided babysitting not potty trained children my entire life. I was a dog mom, a new cat mom, and purr-fectly (sorry, had to) content with that. Then, my husband James and I got the shock of our lives. TWINS. 

    I’m a small person. When we found out about the pregnancy, I was 95 pounds. I’m five foot tall. (5’ 2” when I tease my hair) How in the ham sandwich am I supposed to carry twins?! Besides my physical stature, James did not have a job. I thought, ok Jesus... we’re about to have a chat. How do You think we can handle this? Neither of us have ever changed a diaper, I’m the one with the income. If I have to go on bed rest... how will we provide for two babies? How do you even hold two babies?? How do you hold one baby? 

    That evening, ok... late that night when I couldn’t sleep. I brought all my worries before God. I tell you what... those late nights that I can’t sleep and make my way to the living room... that’s Holy ground. I have spent many nights pouring out my burdens to God and has shown me peace, prophecy, and instruction. That night, was the first of many in our new-to-us house. He took me right to a certain passage.

Matthew 17:10

“Because of you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘move from here to there’, and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

    I laughed. “Ok, show me God. I will have at least a little faith that I can do this. You will equip me to be a good mom. You will also equip James to be a good dad, and get him a job that will provide for a family of four plus two dogs and a cat!” 

    You know what, God did equip me and James. Some days when toddlers tantrum in surround sound, I doubt my abilities. Then God reminds me that He can work through me. He works through my imperfections. God has worked in my heart, brought along the right people into our lives to help us lead the twins in the right direction. 

    I know God chose James and I for these twins. Why? To show of His mighty power and love.